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Let’s catch up!

It’s been two months since my last post. In between that, I watched season one and two of American Horror Story (very brilliant, you’re doing yourself a complete disservice if you haven’t watched it), read several books (shout-out to Joe Hill’s Horns, loved it!), and went to Courtney Love’s gig. And yes, writing, of course.

I wish to thank anyone who downloaded CUT HERE during the 5-day free book promo, as I never would’ve expected to have 613 downloads, shooting the book to #3 in the most downloaded books for free Kindle in the horror section. So if you’re a new reader stopping by the site for the very first time, THANK YOU, you’re awesome, and don’t forget to write a review on either Amazon or Goodreads once you’re done, I’d very much appreciate it!

This seems short and sweet, but I promise that there’s going to be some new things happening on this site. Before I leave you, I want to recommend this awesomely unsettling and creepy movie, It Follows. Watch it for 90 minutes of sinister fun. You won’t regret it.

Behind “CUT HERE,” Part Six.

When I began writing “CUT HERE,” in January 2011, I hadn’t readily decided right away that it was going to be about angels. But I knew that I needed to explore a paranormal premise if I wanted the students’ deaths to be linked to a book. At the time, vampires and werewolves were extremely popular (Twilight, anyone?), but I also knew that I needed something radically different (I’m not going to say original, since a plethora of fiction with angels exist out there). However, my choice to go with angels was more of a personal one.

I’ve always been fascinated by the notion of angels (guardian angels, fallen angels, the whole she-bang of the spectrum). But it wasn’t until my grandmother (whom CUT HERE is dedicated to) was dying of lung cancer did I become acquainted with the knowledge of death angels. One night, while I was sleeping, my grandmother woke me up in the middle of the night and said, “A beautiful man came to me tonight, and told me that I’m never going to get over this illness.” Of course I told her, “You must’ve been dreaming. Don’t take those words to heart, you’ll get better,” although we both knew my words were drenched with lies. But we both wanted it to be true. That she could get better. My grandmother was never the type to have visions or hallucinations, and she was very lucid up to her death. She wasn’t taking any meds that could’ve altered her perception of reality, and I somehow didn’t believe that who/what she saw was a figment of her imagination. So I pressed her for more details, clearly fascinated. When I asked her if the handsome man spoke to her, she said that he told her that he was angel.

“So he had wings?” I inquired.

“No,” she said, “Don’t be ridiculous, of course he didn’t have wings. He was like a normal male, only very tall with long brown hair.”

Curious, I decided to do a little research about this, and to my surprise, I noticed that a lot of people who are facing death have encountered angels (not necessarily with wings), and that such angels are referred to as “death angels” (pretty much aiding a dying person to crossover). I did more research and discovered that the archangel Michael (better known for being a warrior and banishing the Devil to Hell), is a death angel (amongst his other duties of eliminating evil). What I found very interesting is that across the three major religions (Catholic, Jewish, & Muslim), the archangel Michael was present.

So when I chose to write about angels, I thought that Michael would be perfect. His physical description was based on what my grandmother told me about the angel she saw (although I added in the emerald green eyes, as I figured as an angel he would have striking looks). I know that throughout the novel, Michael’s actions may not always make sense, but as I explored what his personality would be like, I imagined someone who’s a warrior, mostly known for being rigid and set on accomplishing his mission. Feelings (whether they’re love or hate) have no place with him, because he’s not human. So when Michael does feel something for Lena (for the sake of simplicity I have him call that feeling “love,” but for an immortal who has never loved, a strong lust is closer to the reality of the situation), and reason why he’s incapable of controlling said feelings whenever in her presence. But he never wavers from his mission though, despite being occasionally distracted by his feelings of lust and jealously.

The only way I could rationalize that an immortal would actually put themselves though high school is if he had a mission to accomplish (because I honestly do not understand characters like the Cullens’ clan in Twilight or the two brothers from The Vampire Diaries, that decide to go to high school pretending to be humans). Why would an immortal ever do that? Especially if a vampire in normal vampiric circumstances, only comes out at night? But I digress.

CUT HERE was inspired by a nightmare that I had in 2008, while Michael was inspired by the angel that visited my grandmother in 2010, and in 2011 I decided to weave those two principle ideas together that would provide the majority of the plot for the novel. Writing CUT HERE was an intimate journey for me, and I hope that you, as a reader, can be swept up in this crazy rollercoaster adventure. I’d suggest to fasten your seatbelts, but I think you’ll appreciate the ride more if you’re reckless. There’s no airbags for this crash. Abandon yourself to the journey, and believe in angels.

Soundtrack for “CUT HERE”.

Music is my bread and butter. Growing up, I’d find any excuse to make a mix tape, whether it was for a friend or crush. Whenever we were assigned book projects in high school, I saw that as a golden opportunity to create soundtracks for those books. In recent years, I’ve noticed that creating sountracks for novels have become the “it” trend. As I wrote CUT HERE, I was inspired by some songs, and imagined which songs would fit into certain scenes in the novel. Other songs found themselves being mentioned in the novel itself during pivotal scenes of action. So here are thirteen songs that I’ve selected that were either mentioned in the novel, or I envisioned would be perfect to set the mood of the novel in certain scenes. Enjoy the darkness.



















As I promised, there’s an exclusive giveaway that will be running from February 7, 2015 – March 13, 2015 (midnight PST). A winner at random will be selected and announced later on Friday, March 13, 2015. Winner will be notified by private message on Goodreads.

Rules & Regulations:

To particpate in this giveaway, you simply need to go to CUT HERE’s Goodreads Page, and mark CUT HERE as “to-read”. EASY.

The Prize:

A gorgeous hand-crafted pendant by Heather Lefler, inspired by the glass/mirror pendants that several characters of CUT HERE wore throughout the novel. Necklace not pictured, but will be included in prize.

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*This giveaway is WORLDWIDE.*

Good luck, and may the giveaway begin!

CUT HERE availabe for pre-order HERE. Book releases on February 13, 2015.


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Here are the dates for CUT HERE’s Blog Tour coming up in February!

Blog Tour Schedule:

    February 16:

paranormal book club (PBC) – http://www.paranormal-bookclub.com – Promo Post
The Best Books Ever – http://www.thebestbooksever.com/ – Review
Forever Obsession – https://extreemeobsessed.blogspot.com – Review
Once Upon A Time A Review -https://onceuponatimelover8.wordpress.com/ – Review

    February 17:

CBY Book Club – http://cbybookclub.blogspot.co.uk/ – Promo Post
Wonderful Monster – http://www.wmbookblog.com – Review
Indy Book Fairy – http://paranormalbookfairy.blogspot.com/ – Promo Post
Undercover Book Reviews – http://undercoverbookreviews.blogspot.com  – Promo Post

    February 18:

Arkham Reviews – http://arkhamreviews.wordpress.com – Review
Between The Lines – http://bestbetweenthelines.blogspot.com – Review
Mythical Books – http://www.mythicalbooks.blogspot.ro/ – Promo Post
My Nook, Books & More – http://www.mynookbooksnmore.com – Promo Post

    February 19:

We Do Write – http://we-do-write.blogspot.com – Promo Post
The Perks of being a Book Nerd – http://www.perksofbeingabooknerd.com – Promo Post
Writer In Progress – http://writerip.blogspot.com – Review
The Voluptuous Book Diva -http://voluptuousbookdiva.blogspot.com – Review
Lovely Reads -http://serenityslovelyreads.blogspot.com/ – Review

    February 20:

Mikky’s World Of Books -http://mikkysworldofbooks.blogspot.fr/ – Promo Post
The Phantom Paragrapher -www.thephantomparagrapher.blogspot.com – Review
The Word at My Fingertips -http://ashjellison.blogspot.com – Review
Passion Obsession -Www.passionobsession.co.uk – Review

CUT HERE availabe for pre-order HERE. Book releases on February 13, 2015.

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Behind, “CUT HERE,” Part Five.

During the writing of CUT HERE, there were several songs that I listened to on repeat as a way to create the ideal mood for me to emerge myself into the dark world of Lena and Jonathan. One of these songs is the infamous Smashing Pumpkins song, Today. Appropriately, this song is about suicide (a major theme in the book), but many people don’t seem to know this. Throughout the years, many listeners have misinterpreted Billy Corgan’s of the lyric, “Today is the greatest day I’ve ever known,” as it can be evidenced by the use of this song in the movie, If I Stay, where the characters of that movie were singing the song together in a sort of happy gathering amongst friends. To them, the song was supposed to be interpreted just as it sounds, “Today is the greatest day,” but boy are they wrong. Dead wrong. Pun intended.

When Corgan sang that lyric, he meant that it was the greatest day he’d ever known, because he wouldn’t be living for a tomorrow. The song is musically upfliting in sound, which gives the lyrics a darker twist. The song sounds happy, because looking towards death was seen as the best thing that could be happening to the singer. Now, a character in my story, Amelia Stevens, loves the Smashing Pumpkins, and there’s a brief reference to them. But the reason why I found listening to to the song so powerful in helping me get into the right mind-frame for writing CUT HERE is that each of the characters in CUT HERE are broken in their own way. The lyrics of Today drip heavily with the blood of a broken person, and what better way to delve into the psyche of broken characters than by obsessively listening to a song that does just that?

CUT HERE availabe for pre-order HERE. Book releases on February 13, 2015.

Add CUT HERE on Goodreads!

CUT HERE available for Pre-Order!

Forgive me, but this update will be full of shameless self-promotion.

In less than a month, CUT HERE will be available to readers! Pre-order now and you’ll get the book the day it releases 13.02.15, and if you’re a member of the Kindle Unlimited, you have the chance to read the book FREE!

Pre-Order CUT HERE today!

Add me on Goodreads and check out an excerpt of the book! Remember to put it on your “want to read” list to get updates and such!

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And last, but not least: I’ll be doing a blog tour during the week of February 16-20! I’ll be posting where you can check me out during my stops.

Also, keep your eyes peeled for a very special (and limited edition) giveaway!

Behind, “CUT HERE” Part One.

First posts are always difficult. It’s like trying to introduce yourself at a party. First impressions can be so crippling, especially when everyone you know has a blog, and they’re all awful, navel-gazing trainwrecks (both the blog and the bloggers). Unfortunately, this is no exception. I’ll tell you from the start that this is going to be one hell of a navel-gazing trainwreck, so hit that back button right now. You’ve been warned. Unless you’re a masochist. In which case, carry on reading this blog. It may feed into your pain-seeking thrills.

The concept of “CUT HERE,” all began with a dream I had in the summer of 2008. It wasn’t really a dream, but more of a nightmare. It was Christmas time in Catania, Sicily and a girl sees a book on display at a bookstore kiosk entitled CUT HERE. The book’s cover had a bloody line across a faceless person’s neck, bleeding the title. Shortly after, sounds of sirens invade the dream, and as the girl rushes to the sounds, she sees a trail of blood on the asphalt and a mink coat on the ground. Everything is red.

Christmas in Catania

Flash forward to me seeing the same girl again, but this time she’s in a bookstore, holding a copy of the book, CUT HERE, waiting for it to be autographed by a Japanese author. But the girl is in danger, and so she runs away. I soon wake up with a sense of dread. I usually don’t write down my dreams often, but that time I wrote down that dream cause it left me with a haunting feeling. At the time I didn’t know if I’d ever use that dream for a short story, poem, or novel. It sat there gathering virtual dust on my computer for three years before I decided to re-read that dream, one night in Janury of 2011. Soon, that dream would become Lena Martin’s tortured past.

Being a huge music addict, I don’t know if the title of the book that the students of St. Lucy Academy are obsessed over, came to me because of the infamous Cure song by that title, or because of a shirt I saw long ago that had a scissor pattern along the neck with the same words, whatever the case, enjoy the song below, as that may make you feel as though you didn’t entirely waste your time by venturing into the depths of this blog.

Keep your eyes peeled, CUT HERE will be unleashed upon the world on February 13, 2015 (I couldn’t pass up the opportunity to have the book launch on Friday the 13th. There will also be a blog tour starting the 16th of February, but more on that when the time comes.

As an ending note, just remember aspiring writers, inspiration can come from anything. Just because you don’t use something right away doesn’t mean that you can’t eventually use it for a project. My nightmare was stashed away for three years before it became the protagonist’s backstory. So never underestimate the worth of something just because it doesn’t click right away with an idea. File it away, and eventually it can be used for something.

As for what I wish to accomplish with this blog? The short answer is, take you behind the scenes of the development of, “CUT HERE,” which will include how Dario Argento was a prime inspiration, Clive Barker’s Dread, Ryan Donowho, and Smashing Pumpkin’s ‘Today,’ all fell into a melting pot of thriving ideas to help forge a novel that is dark, and a little twisted. Stay tuned.